Second Week Down!

I worked out a few times in “sneakers designed for aerobics with high dollar price tag” but my feet were left aching and swollen. So I had a brilliant idea to wear what I use to wear a lot. My chucks. I love chucks. But guess what, chucks hurt too. By the end of the week I had painful blisters on both little toes and two achy heals. But alas, I still exercised, painful feet is no excuse. 

Last week was a little harder for me. I was wanting, no dreaming, of eating lots of things that were not good for me. Donuts, cakes, pies, ice cream, m&m’s, at one point I found myself about to lick my little girls fingers that were covered in chocolate, considering she has recently learned to pick her boogers, I decided it wasn't a smart idea, say it with me ewwww! 

 

Instead I ate a small piece of Hershey’s chocolate. You know, that tiny 1 x 1 ½ inch square of delightful heaven, stopped the cravings. Sometimes you have to have a little to go further. And it didn’t hurt my calorie count by too much.

I went through the week eating my frozen lunches and snacks as I planned and we took turns cooking dinner (that helps sooo much because I hate cooking).  We ate out on Friday night at Subway; I chose a sandwich that was less than 400 calories so all was good.

Saturday. SOS. Sinking ship! Uh Oh. Neither of us wanted to cook and neither of us wanted to drive to go get something. So we ordered pizza. My plan was to eat no more then 2 slices of a small pizza keeping well below my calorie intake of the day. PLANNED FAILED! I succumbed to the call of that greasy cheesy vegetable circle of calories and ate a third piece. Immediately after that I felt ill. 

I can't eat three slices of this!

If I wanna look like that.....

Subconsciously inflicted illness? Who will ever know, but I went to bed that night with a tummy ache and a heavy heart for failing myself. I knew those 3 slices of pizza was overdoing it. And my body was just telling me “HA! Now you have to pay for it!” Live and learn right?

So what have I learned this week? Wrap up those little toe’s with some sort of bandage, because you have been sitting on your ass for years and they aren’t use to rubbing the inside of your shoes during excessive walking. Giving your self a little reward is perfectly okay (as long as it doesn’t involve licking booger fingers) but overindulgence is unwise when trying to create a new lifestyle change.

All in All I am still trucking down that weight/fat loss highway. And I am still proud of myself for making it to the gym 3 times last week, trying Zumba (that’s another story) and for lasting my goal of 5 minutes on the elliptical machine. YAY ME!

This weeks stats:

Summary
	Budget	Food	Calories Burned			Weight (lbs)
7/18/11	1,547	1,431	271			259
7/19/11	1,547	1,399	319			259
7/20/11	1,547	748	0			259
7/21/11	1,520	1,293	0			255
7/22/11	1,516	1,055	485			254.4
7/23/11	1,516	1,353	0			254.4
7/24/11	1,516	1,347	0			254.4
3,158 calories under budget for the week
1075 Calories burned thru exercise
Lost 4.6 pounds this week

Overall  Lost: 10.6 pounds

 

 

Till next time peeps!

 Keep Shining!

Week 1 Down and Gone!

Okay so I am still alive! I have put into motion a new life style plan! Whoop Whoop!

Last week I started a new calorie tracker program and set a goal of no more then 1789 a day in calories. By the end of the week I felt like this was a little high so I lowered it to 1547. I went to the gym 3 times and I did some spirit dancing at home one evening.
 I am soo stoked that I had a great week and I did all this for me! I dove in with the mindset that this was the beginning of my SELF CARING! A new friend told me a few weeks ago that I could not be the best for my family if I did not figure out a way to be the best me! And I have to admit I feel energized and I think I have at least smiled 3-4 times everyday. :) I know I know what a surprise!

 

Last week I also went for a bra fitting, ATTENTION LADIES!!!! Do this! I can not say how happy I was to have the girls back where they are suppose to be! I was like hello ladies, say goodbye to the basement, it's nice to see you back in the penthouse! :) So many of us wear the wrong size bras and trust me I didn't think it mattered but it does.  Helps with that ole self esteem!

I also invested in a few pair of Spanx. Now these can be a little pricey but you can find them on ebay  (NWT), for a lot cheaper. Spanx do not help you lose weight, unless you count the time putting them on as a workout, but they do hide and smooth out your curves, which in my case is like rolling hills, and they also give your confidence a boost and it helps with your posture as well.

 

NO this is not me!

Foods- Well I have been eating Lean Cuisine's for lunch and my snacks are fruits, almonds carrots, cucumber or beef jerky. For breakfast I have a bagel, or boiled eggs and a side of yogurt sometimes I grab a Kashi bar.  Dinner has been home cooked and with veggies, no starches.  Last week I stayed true to my plan and only ate out twice. Lubys and Applebees, both times I ate the healthiest thing I could find on the menu.

So here are my stats:

Weekly Report for week of July 11, 2011

Daily Summary
	Budget	Food	Calories Burned (Exercise)			Weight
Jul-11-11	-	-	-			-
Jul-12-11	1,798	1,683	Treadmill, Bike, Strength Training 236			265
Jul-13-11	1,798	1,233	Treadmill, Bike, Strength Training 320			-
Jul-14-11	1,798	1,089	Spirit Dancing 299			265
Jul-15-11	1,798	1,768	-			-
Jul-16-11	1,798	1,521	-			-
Jul-17-11	1,547	1,318	Gardening 185			259
1925 calories under for the week
1,041 exercise calories burned this week
LOST 6 pounds this week!!!!!!!!!

Come on Week 2...I got this!   :)

Fat to Phat?

So what's the plan man? How do I get from 20 jeans to 14 oh yes please? Well it isn't going to happen over night. It took me many years to get to this size, so I know it will take many to get me back healthy. I don't have unrealtistic expectations, I do not expect to ever be like Kate Beckinsale.

Kate Beckinsale

Sophia Loren

 

LISTEN LADIES! You do not have to be SKINNY to be HOT! Society has moved away from thinking bombshell beauties like Sophia Loren to skinny skinny ladies like Miss Kate was the way to be. It is unhealthy to think someone (mainly me) not shaped like dear Kate could look like her. However, I do expect to look in the mirror one day soon, at my sexy curves, and healthy body and say damn...I worked hard...and I feel great! I have focused so long, and so many years on hating my outer body, that I kept this skinny girl attitude deep down inside. You know, the chic who can walk in a room and with her smile and confidence, charm the room.  Yea that "skinnae gurl attitude" that's what I am talkin about!

Like these Models who are making the covers of magazines today!

Candice Hauffine

Kasia P

 

 

 

 

 

Tara Lynn

All "plus" size models, but they are healthy and so very sexy. 

So, my plan is:

1. Stop beating myself down. See my spirit not my flab!

2. Eat healthier (Limit to eating out once or twice a week) Limit sweets and fried foods!

3. Snack. That's right I said snack. Since I am lowering my food intake to less then 1500 calories a day, I need to eat more healthier snacks through the day, to keep my energy level high. Not 2 meals packed high in fat and huge portion sizes like I have been doing.

4. Exercise! I have worked at a desk for 17 years....NO WONDER my ass is ssoooo fat!

5. Log my stats in my iphone app "Lose it" to stay on track. 

I have set my goal to lose 65 pounds by next February. So here I  go....

-peace peeps-

Awakening

I wasn't always fat.

The year of 1992, I was pretty darn cute, even with the full can of Aqua Net in my hair! I was 5'6 and weighed about 135. Full figured. Always had nice thighs. So I was told.

 

Then I had a baby. Cute little turd he was, 7 lbs and 2 ounces, how is it I gained about 30 pounds and never shed it? I was never much for eating healthy or small portions, I was taught to eat everything on my plate. But hey going from a size 9 to a size 12 wasn't to horrible. I had a baby after all. Right?

 

Besides, I told myself, I still looked healthy, didn't need to be so skinny anyway. I was married and my main concern was to take care of my boy, my husband and the household. So I was told. Now mind you, that shithead told me constantly how fat I was, but I didn't believe him because I knew he said those things just so I would coward down to him. But I loved to eat. I loved to bury my marriage problems in food. I was in an extremely abusive relationship, the more he beat me down, the more I buried myself in a carton of ice cream. I could eat a whole medium size hamburger pizza from good ole Pizza Inn by myself. I would hide the box in the trash bin. In the next five years I went up to a size 14.

But I finally grew some balls and stood up to that SOB and got out. And as everyone knows, divorce = WEIGHT LOSS! Without even trying, I went from that size 14 back down to a 10 in less then 6 months. Being a single mother was hard work and supporting me and my boy was difficult but, I would use $10 a week  to go to the dance clubs, dancing all night, which probably helped me lose that weight. I had FREEDOM, I loved music I loved to dance! And I felt good in that size 10 halter top and booty shorts.

And then I saw him.

Who? Doesn't matter. He wasn't the who he said he would be. But, I stopped dancing, started taking care of him, not me. Oh and I found that old friend. Food. Long time no see. I missed you. Come on down, start packing on the pounds, what? me? bigger then I use to be? Who cares. He doesn't see. 3 years...Oh wait he does see, it is now evident, because look at her, that skinny thing clinging to him on the back of that Harley.

Jackass. Pencil dick. Shorty. I am out of here. He didn't deserve me.

Back to dancing and the music. Slam! Wham! Hit full force by a new He. And he is so sexy. So handsome. All the girls are looking at him. And he wants to dance with me. Me who is now a size 14, 170 pounds with a whole lot more of booty. He says he likes the way I move it. 

So I kissed him. WOW! BOOM! did you feel that? I think it was an earthquake. 

Three years later he married me. Now a size 16 and 180 pounds a full figured gal he says he loves. 

 

We have been married for 8 years, together for 11. But I continued to gain. One night looking in the mirror I was so disgusted by what I saw, I knew I had let things get out of hand. I was a size 20 and 245 pounds. In five years I gained  65 pounds! But I was fooling myself you see. I only took pictures of my upper body. At certain angles and in certain clothes. So when I looked at myself I still saw the vibrant pretty healthy me.

 

Then I got pregnant. I managed to not gain any extra weight while I was pregnant, which is painfully obvious that I had plenty for me and an unborn baby to live off of. But in the last three years I have managed to put on another 22 pounds I am still wearing a size 20 but I can't hide anymore. It is affecting my health. I can't walk the mall anymore. I can't play with my little girl without getting out of breath. So in February I got a membership at eXygon and I went....twice.

I know I am fat. I know I am unhealthy. Why couldn't I get off my ass and get to the gym. Well I can come up with many excuses not to go. But after going on holiday this month my niece took some pictures of me playing in the water with my little girl.

I didn't realize whales swam in Spring Water. What the fuck? Who the hell is that? Holy Moly Rollie Pollie! I am not that fat! I mean yea, I have been going up in size but I can't be that unhealthy. It must be the lighting. It HAS to be the angle.

Wake up honey. Your ass from any angle looks the same as in that photo. Admit it. Stop hiding it. Stop lying.

I am unhealthy and over weight. I am a fat girl with a skinny spirit. I am a chubby wubby woman with tummy roles. No wonder I couldn't find clothes that fit me in the stores, I shouldn't have been looking in the Women's department, I should have been in Sporting goods looking for a tarp! 

Got a scalpel? liposuction anyone? Weight Loss Surgery? $16,000 what? Hell no, I ain't got that. I have been buying food the last 19 years. Maybe if I hadn't bought so much of it I would have that kind of doe. 

So what now? 

Any one hear of self caring? I hadn't until the other day. See I care for everyone else, I never stop to care for myself. Well...not anymore. That skinny girl inside of me is pissed off. She is angry and fierce. 

Watch out fatso in the mirror...this skinny chic is taking you down!

-it's on!-